"LIFE GOES ON."

You don't deserve me,
all you want to do is hurt me,
you were my shell &nd I was your pearl,
&nd now you want to do a 360 twirl.

I thought my life was complete when you walked in it,
my friends warned me but my stubborn self went along and did it,
cause when you left
you were the one I missed
&nd now I just sit back and reminisce on what didn't work out,
the love I had for you was strong with out a doubt.

Now all I can do is just sit back in pain and realize
what we had went down the drain,
we both know this is insane, but choices had to be made.
I knew I had to change my ways and be the person you wanted me to be,
trust and believe I tried over time but you just didn't see,
I could have sworn you and me were meant to be.

I loved the way you made me feel inside, you gave me a reason to survive
&nd understand why I was alive.
All I wanted to be was your lady
I know it sounds crazy, but I'm just trying not to let you faze me.
Cause I realize that crying is not the only option,
I got to have the mind state like " I guess I have to accept the fact that I lost him."
but now that your gone I feel so blind.
I guess all I can do is leave it all behind and continue
my journey of life on this road that's so unaligned.
Yeah I understand I was a chapter in your life no need to define,
but now I know "LIFE GOES ON" is this poems headline.

i'll be okay

I thought you were the one for me
Now I see that I was wrong
I felt like my life would fall apart
If I woke up and you were gone

You told me that your love was gone
And it completely broke my heart
I loved you so much deep inside
Your words were a cutting remark

Now I see that I am okay
And I can live without you here
I know it's hard and it hurts inside
But deep down I have no fear

You'll live your life and I'll live mine
We will go our separate ways
we'll move on with other ppl
But won't forget our "together" days

You'll always hold a place in my heart
That I will never forget
And the love that we once had
I will never regret

I must say goodbye to you
And move on day by day
My feelings for you will eventually fade
And I know I'll be okay

part .2

i swore the day u terminated my tenancy
that i would ask the judge 2 overturn the decision
u moved on with the next chick while i was doin my bid
in this broken hearted prison

i tried to stop it but my heart wouldnt stop beatin inside
i was rushed to the med center for being dehydrated from all
the tears ive cried,
they shot me with and i.v full of liquids
not realizing i needed ur love to survive
i was put on the donor list for usable heartbeats
but noone thumped in my unison with my vessel inside

&nd there u stood heart in hand beating profusely
u opted not to save me, kicked the chair &nd left me hanging
u noosed me
&nd there i dangled fighting for dying breaths as
the blood slowly fills my eyes
my retinas are crimson colored by numbers 2 depict how
effectively u made my heart die

but in the case of my heart..u have bittin off more than
you can chew
u can never digest my love
so u opted just to spew

ur like the executioner of my heart
only u have the power to flip the switch
its like u get pleasure in keepin
me in a vegetated state instead of
throwing my body in a ditch

u made it impossible for me to love another
ur lies are tattooed permanently on my face
as a frown
i slit my wrists &nd let the blood formulate in
dirt in the ground


my last final phrase reads....


ALL I EVER WANTED WAS TO BE THE GIRL U LET ETERNALLY..HOLD U DOWN

termination of tenancy

i found the x..but not the treasure as the map stated
the final destination marked our separation
forcing me to believe that somehow our
union must have been ill fated

we've tried to build a foundation that was 3 yrs in the making
but the inspector shut us down
due to several love violations
u was the slum lord of my heart not willing
to fix the damage left by previous tenants
u offered half ass attempts to patch up the heartache
but u left me swimming
in my broken heart remnants

i agreed to the lease terms
starting on the day we met &nd expiring on the day we died
but the one misunderstanding led to me being charged
a late fee for every tear i've cried
sadness was a violation of our contractual agreement
so you chose not to renew my lease
i came home to find a padlock on ur heart &nd my possessions
thrown out in the street

i tried to appeal ur decision in the highest court of law
begging &nd pleading
to the jury to please force ur heart to make it love me
again like it did before
instead the jury foreman handed down my ultimate fate
guilty of trespassing on your property when it clearly stated
"no vacancy" on the sign that was posted on ur gate

Now im a criminal at large simply for fallin in love too hard
i'd rather be in a coffin than to
live behind those bars
at least if my soul has ceased i would understand
not having you within my reach
but to be alive and breathing mutual air is too much to
havoc for my mind to wreck

i couldn't pay the judgment assessed so u opted
to take my heart in a Lieu of monetary fees
u won the civil suit &nd retained the rights to every drop
of blood that my heart bleeds
i can never cry for anyone else i cant never emit for
any love legally
i violated the restraining order
&nd now ur the owner of every breath that i breathe